Packing

Is it possible to get my whole life and E's packed up in just a few suitcase?  Let's hope so!  We must be 98% packed by tomorrow night, so let's all cross our fingers.  The stress of packing, moving to a new world, and being a new parent is quite overwhelming.  I had a big of a breakdown yesterday.  Today there was no time to break down.  E was a champ of a sleeper last night.  She went down at 11:20 PM last night and woke up about 5:45 AM.  Great job, E.  Who was not a great sleeper last night?  This gal.  I was up just about every hour because I couldn't chill out.  My brain was going 20394829384 miles a minute.  I was going through and adding up all the things still left to get done before Wednesday afternoon.  Another big stresser for me today was my six week check up.  I don't live near my doctor's office so I had to take public transportation.  I knew I'd be away from E for a good four hours or so and I've never been away from her for more than 15 minutes when she and T went around the block for a walk once or twice.  I definitely just about drained my phone battery texting T every five seconds checking in and asking if I should just come back and cancel my appointment.  I ended up making the appointment and T, E, and my dad (who came up to help send me off) picked me up and E was fast asleep and in one cute little piece.

So back to this packing away my life... I used to be such a pro at knowing what to pack and how to pack efficiently.  What happened to me over the years?  I've also accrued so much stuff!  Who really needs four piggy banks, 150+ DVDs, and 23 of the same tank top in various colors (I'm addicted to Target long and lean tanks...)?  T is going to end up filling up a large suitcase and a half plus a carry on.  I've already filled up two large suitcase and a carry on with stuff for me and E.  But there's still SO much stuff left I'd like to bring!  I've spent five years building my DVD collection!  I don't want to leave any of them behind!  And my Harry Potter book collection!  It's so heavy, but I need them with me!  I've read them all more than once.  And what about my elephant collection?  I love them all!  E will love them!  E will want them!  I want them!  This is so hard.  I'm starting to get very flustered and angry about having to give up so many of my things that I want to get to the Netherlands and start throwing away tons of T's things.  I know this is a silly and irrational thing to want to do, but this sleep deprived ex-pat-to-be mama is losing her mind!

Speaking of losing my mind...it's after 11 PM again and E's waking back up after I thought I got her down 15 minutes ago.  :(